[whitelion65]

Mate,
That’s some pretty heavy stuff you’ve had to go through, and facing your mortality (either way) can be confronting.
I’m in hospital at the moment, for the third time since May. I’ve had trouble with infection in a VP shunt (a line that drains fluid from my brain to my guts). For a bloke who presented suicidal (clinically confirmed) at emergency mental health around two years ago, I’ve found that when it comes down to it, we cling to life (and hope, I guess).
I would go back to your Dr and go over the pros and cons again, even try to see a councilor to help arrange your thoughts.
You seem like a great bloke, from reading your posts. I wish we could have a cool one together and chew the fat.
Stay strong brother.
Steve